Topic Of The Day: Growing Up

Who knew that growing up would be so much work. I remember being a kid and wanting to grow up so I could stay up as late as I wanted to, eat as much dessert as I wanted to, and not have anyone tell me what to do. Those were the days though. I so miss playing outside all summer long with no worries, waking up on Christmas morning to a pile of presents, and (maybe this was just me) singing and making up dance routines in front of my mirror every night. Back when we were kids, everything was taken care of for us. We didn’t have to cook for ourselves, pay bills, or worry about working for a living.

That was the life. Too bad we never realize it when it’s happening. The grass is always greener. Don’t get me wrong, there are some great things about being an adult, like we can stay up as late as we want to, eat as much dessert as we want to, and not have anyone telling us what to do. Lol. But we also have to deal with the consequences.

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And being an adult is stressful. There’s so much to do. We have to pay bills, work to pay those bills, in my case take care of other human beings. Just today, I’m working feverishly to fix my canceled-for-no-reason insurance, pay for a car that was totaled and for our new car, keep up with my school work, take care of my 2 year old, finish growing this baby in my belly, plan and shop for Easter, and also somehow find time to make dinner. All while on “bed rest”.

Knowing what I know now about adulthood, I hope to keep my children small for as long as possible. I want them to have crazy fun adventures, make up silly stories, and pretend to be knights and cowboys. Yep, that’s the plan. I hope I can keep them innocent for as long as I can. It seems like worldly things are creeping into our homes and lives at a younger and younger age these days. But we’re all just doing our best, right? If there’s one thing I wish, it’s that my kids have amazing memories of when they were little.

Topic Of The Day: A New Beginning

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Well, here we go. From everything that’s happened this past year, (a year ago yesterday,) today is my own personal “New Year” and I’m making my resolution to get healthy!!

Goal #1: Eat Clean

Goal #2: Portion Control

Goal #3: Weekly Meal Prep

Goal #4: Start A Weight Loss Routine

Goal #5: Buy A Treadmill

Goal #6: Make Water My New BFF

Goal #7: Build A Support System

Here’s to the start of a brand new, healthier and happier, life for me and my family!

Welcome To My Blog!

This is a blog about my journey from fat to fit by eating clean and sweating it out.

I’ve been overweight my whole life. As far back as I can remember anyway, and I don’t have a great memory of my childhood years. (My long-term memory is so bad, sometimes I think I have Alzheimer’s already!) I know now that my mom cooks some bomb meals, though not very healthy. And that I moved with my dad when I was 6 or so, and he didn’t cook at all. We lived on school breakfasts or donuts on the way to school, school lunches, and fast food for dinner. Every day. Except weekends, when we were privileged to eat pre-packaged meals full of junk. So, needless to say, I didn’t grow up knowing anything about the right way or the right things to eat.

Once I got older, around age 13, I started realizing how badly I was treating my body. Did I change anything? No. I was 13, living in a new place and going to a new school. Food was comforting for me. It was that friend who was always there for me. Now, I grew up with some really great friends, but I also grew up being bullied every day of my life, thinking my dad loved my brother more, and not having a relationship with my mom. Yeah, I was troubled. I grew up using food and tv to shove down my emotions and not think about how sad and lonely I really was.

One reason that I’m finally ready to get healthy is for my kids. Now that I am older, married, and have kids of my own, is to give my kids a better life than I had. It kills me to think that they could grow up sad, lonely, or not liking themselves, like I did. I don’t want to pass my unhealthy lifestyle on to them. Another reason for doing this? So I can actually be around long enough to teach them anything! My kids are my world and I would do anything for them, including getting rid of all of my awful habits.

Now for the reason I wanted to start this blog TODAY. I’m dedicating this blog to my second son Charlie, who I lost a year ago today, March 24, 2012, when I was 6 months pregnant. It was such a terrifying experience, but contrary to what I would’ve said a year ago, something good has come out of it. Losing my son has made me even more grateful for the children that I am able to raise on this earth. I want to be the best person and mom I can be for my kids and that’s including the one I have watching me from Heaven. I keep thinking about him, looking down on me, and I want him to be proud. I want him to be excited to meet me one day!

I love my little guys and this is for them!