Weekly weigh in day was yesterday, but I was busy with doctor’s appointments and rowdy children. So, here it is…. This week was better than last. I lost 3.5 lbs.! I’ve gotten better at managing my food intake. I found this great dressing and made a Southwest Chicken Salad and My husband and I liked it so much, we had it 3 days in a row! I also made some Honey Lime Shrimp with rice and corn. And just now I finished eating a spinach and cheese omelet and a berry smoothie. Eating healthy rocks because I’m already feeling so much better! I also went out last night and bought some new workout shoes and walked on the treadmill for about 20 min. I’m excited to break them in some more! I recently talked to a friend of mine about some workout programs and after a lot of thinking and a lot of research, I’ve decided to start Insanity and Shakeology! My start date is June 3rd and I have a friend starting with me, so it’s great to have that extra support from each other. I highly recommend starting a workout program/schedule with a friend, even if they live 300 miles away like my friend does. Just make sure and choose the right friend. It wouldn’t help to start with someone who wasn’t very enthusiastic about it.
Other than that, I’ve realized a few new fitness and personal goals that I have for the year, and just wanted to jot down some old ones so I have them posted to keep me accountable. Here we go:
1. Complete A Round Of Insanity And Lose 50lbs.
2. Run My First 5k.
3. Clean And Organize My House.
4. Learn To Sew.
5. Start Making Handbags.
6. Learn To Speak French.
7. Learn To Tango.
Not a short order, I know, and I’m sure I’ll be adding more and more as time goes on. There’s so much that I want to do with my life. I’ve finally realized that I AM important and I DO matter. This past week has been very overwhelming as a stay at home mom and I keep thinking something that most moms probably wouldn’t admit. I wish my life was different. I don’t want to be a mom. Not right now. I want a do-over. More than anything, I wish that I could go back in time and re-do my life. Don’t get me wrong. I LOVE my family, more than anything, and if going back in time would mean I lost them, no way would I do it. But if I could have them, just later in life, I would. Since I’ve always been overweight, I’ve been bullied my whole life. I grew up just wanting someone to love me and to me that translated into marriage and children. Did I make this connection then? No. If I had, maybe I would’ve realized that I needed to figure out how to be the person I wanted to be, a person I loved and was proud of. I missed out on so many experiences. I wish I had dated. I mean, I was engaged by 16! I still would want to end up with my husband, but I wish I had experienced dating different guys. I wish I’d finished high school and gone to a great university and lived in the dorms. I wish I’d eventually had a great job/career and my own apartment. I wish I’d traveled and had some romantic fling in another country. Lol.
There’s so much I wish I’d done, but you know, there’s really no use thinking about it, is there? Maybe life would’ve been easier and I would’ve learned some important lessons sooner, but this is my life and as crazy as it is, I love it. I love my family and I can still enjoy my life and thrive within my family unit. Can I date around? No. Can I have my own place? Probably not. Lol. But I can enjoy my wonderful kids, I can go to school, I can have a career, I can travel, and I can do it all with the ones I adore by my side. It’s nowhere near perfect, but it’s MY crazy, hectic, amazing life.