Insanity Complete!!

Oh my gosh! I finished something!
I have had a really rough 2 months, with lots of drama, stress, and personal/family matters going on. As much as I enjoyed this program and the way it’s made me feel physically and mentally, it’s been really hard to stick to it. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs when it comes to getting my workouts in. And these last 2 weeks I’ve had a hard time eating the way I was in the beginning. I’ve disappointed myself a few times for sure, but I am incredibly proud that I didn’t quit. I kept going.

My goal was to lose 30 lbs. in these 2 months on Insanity. I didn’t meet my goal. I lost 25 lbs. Not as good as I could’ve done and I know that. I let my emotions get the best of me recently and slacked a lot. But, 25 lbs. is 25 lbs. I’m happy about it! And I know that I can do better next time. There’s room for improvement for sure and I will improve if that’s what I want to do and if that’s what I work for. I am super proud of myself for completing this program. Although I didn’t do as well as I thought I could or would, I stuck it out and finished. And I’m not stopping anytime soon. =D

Pictures first: I can definitely see a difference, and in 2 months I’ll see more of a difference, and so on and so on. I’ll never quit taking care of myself again.

NEW Day 1 and 60 (1)

NEW Day 1 and 60 (2)

NEW Day 1 and 60 (3)

Day 1:
Weight – 297
Pant Size – 24
Shirt Size – 3x
Waist – 51
Hips – 54
Chest – 47
Arms – 15
Thighs – 30

Body Mass Index – 40.3
Body Fat – 58%

Day 60:
Weight – 272
Pant Size -22
Shirt Size – 1x/2x
Waist – 48
Hips – 51.5
Chest – 45
Arms – 14
Thighs – 28

Body Mass Index – 36.9
Body Fat – 55%


Another Week, Another Weigh-In

Well, this week has been a tough one. Visiting family while trying to eat right is hard. We went to visit my in-laws and ended up going to a block party with tons of food. I found some healthy things, but as my husband sat down next to me with a plate full of stuffed jalapenos, cookies, and cake, I found myself eating a few bites from his plate! Fail. We went straight from the party back to their house and ate dinner. (I did not need to eat any more.) We had to eat fast so I scarfed down a veggie burger, a baked potato, carrots, corn on the cob, and some potato salad. WHAT?! Right after I finished my plate, I was completely disappointed with myself. I just had to keep telling myself that it was only one meal (one BIG meal) and that the next day would be better. Also, I got 2 hours of cardio in the pool that day so that helped a little as well. We were supposed to leave the next morning but there was a change of plans and we stayed for another day and a half. And no, I didn’t bring Insanity with me. We went to the beach the next morning and I got an amazing workout in the ocean (trying not to get pulled in, lol) and on the shore, chasing my dog around with my son. It was a exhausting but such a blast! And I ate as well as I could with what I had. The real problem is that when I’m out and about or hanging out with people, I forget to eat! Ugh. Lessons learned I hope.

Which brings me to the weigh-in. Yeah, not so good this week. I screwed up with food and my workouts this week and ended up gaining 3 lbs. Yep, I’m back up to 290 lbs. I’m so ashamed. I know that I have people who are looking to me to inspire them and motivate them and I feel like I’ve let all of you down this week. I’m sorry to you and to myself for doing this again.

This is a daily struggle. I have an addiction to food. It’s real. And it’s hard to get past it. It’s the same as having any other kind of addiction; alcohol, drugs, etc. To me, an eating addiction is worse. You can rid your house of alcohol and drugs, but we all have to eat. My addiction stares me in the face every day. I keep wondering when I’ll stop having these setbacks. Every time I mess up I feel guilty, ashamed, and disappointed. All I want to do is curl into a little ball and cry. But I found something on facebook that my coach posted and it made me feel so much better so I’d love to share it with you.


But, since I’m halfway through Insanity (only 4 weeks left!) and I’ve seen some changes other than on the scale, I thought I’d post some more during pictures. These are my 30 day results with Insanity:

before1during day 30

before 2during day 30 (2)

before 3during day 30 (3)

Weight – 290 (7 lbs. down)

Pant Size – 22 (down 2 pant sizes)

Shirt Size – 2x (down 1 shirt size)

Waist – 50 (down 1 inch)

Hips – 52 (down 2 inches)

Chest – 45 (down 2 inches)

Arms – 14.5 (down .5 inch)

Thighs – 29 (down 1 inch)

Body Mass Index – 49.3 (down 1 point)

Body Fat – 57% (down 1%)

And there you have it. Progress! I have 4 weeks left until Insanity, which means to meat my original goal for the program, I need to lose another 23 lbs. which seems crazy! I also joine another challenge group. This one is 90 days so finishing this round of Insanity and finishing another round as well. My goal for that is to lose 40 lbs., fit into a size 18 pants and an XL shirt. Wish me luck??

Update: 19 Days In

Yes, two blog posts in one day!

I am 19 days into Insanity and my mostly clean eating. I say mostly because I am visiting my mom and I did slip and have one of her burritos. And maybe a few sodas. Tsk, tsk. I know. But, I’m not going ot beat myself up about it. I am still doing better than I ever have on a diet/program before and I am proud of that. I’m also proud that I didn’t decide to quit just because I messed up a little, like I would’ve done in the past. This is a new, better life!

So, I haven’t lost as much as I thought I would yet and I’ve been really trying to continue to stay positive. Pinterest helps. I have an amazing Health and Fitness board that really inspires me. I’m also in a few groups on facebook, some full of people doing Beachbody Programs, others full of people who need to lose over 100 lbs. like me. They are a life-saver. And my Beachbody coach is amazing. I can call or text her anytime and she always lifts my spirits. Anyway, today I was having an especially hard time staying positive and decided to take some new pictures to see if I can see any physical changes and well, here they are:


Maybe I’m crazy but I think I’ve lost weight in my stomach for sure and maybe some in my arms. My husband keeps telling me my face looks thinner too, but I don’t know. Anyway, it is so exciting to see this program and this process working! I am loving the workouts, the healthy eating, and the results. 19 days in, and only 10 days until recovery week. I’ll post more pictures then!!

Topic Of The Day: The Dreaded Scale

I am now 12 days into this program, this new lifestyle, and I’m dying. Lol. I feel more healthy, but definitely haven’t gotten that extra energy yet. I’m always tired. And always sore. Last night, I did my workout for the first time with my husband. Well, kind of. He sort of stopped during the warm-up. Sure, he has some hip issues from the Army, but he’s in pretty good shape so it made me feel darn good that I lasted longer than him. It was a nice little boost for me since I’ve been feeling kind of down lately. Truth: I haven’t lost any weight. That darn scale won’t move! But I should always remember:


I’m in some support groups on Facebook and was wondering how everyone else did just starting out. Some said that some people just don’t lose weight at first. Some people even gain. Someone said you’re losing weight and gaining muscle at the same rate so it doesn’t register on the scale. They said to take pictures and measure myself again. I’ve actually noticed recently that when I do pushups, my stomach hangs down a little less than it used to. I just thought I was being paranoid, though. I measured again and realized that I lost 2 inches in waist already! And 1 inch in my hips and arms. This is amazing! It really isn’t all about the scale. I realize that a little more now. I will still do my weekly weigh ins, but I’m not going to let it get me down anymore if it doesn’t say a big number. I’m feeling so much better about myself and I’m going to focus on that from now on.


I have noticed some changes in my body and what it can do, just in these last 12 days. I have been horribly ore, today mostly in my back and calves, but because of all the workouts and stretching, I have become more flexible. On day 1, I could only bend down with my legs straight and touch the floor with my fingertips. Today, I can just about put my palms on the floor. I’ve also been modifying a lot less. I’m able to do so much more with my body than I was 12 days ago. I can’t wait until I’m not modifying at all. Some friends of mine started this program the same day as me and they have all been able to get through the whole warm up without stopping. I’m not there yet, but I know I WILL get there. I can certainly last longer without stopping than on day 1 and I’m o proud of myself for that.  I definitely have to start celebrating those non-scale victories.


Another thing I think we should all do, is stop comparing ourselves to others! I know I do it. I sit here saying, She can do this and I can’t, etc. but she’ not in the same place as me. She could have started where I am, months or years ago, but I’m sure she couldn’t do what she’s doing now when she started. We all start at different levels, but we can get to where we want to be if we work for it!


Keeping Myself Accountable

I’ve realized that, as embarrassed as I am, I feel like I should post some before pictures, my weight (which I have said before) and my measurements to keep me accountable. Okay, I’m more than embarrassed, I’m terrified. Ugh. Here goes.

Weight – 297
Pant Size – 24
Shirt Size – 3x
Waist – 51
Hips – 54
Chest – 47
Arms – 15
Thighs – 30

Body Mass Index – 40.3
Body Fat – 58%

Before Photos 2

Overall Goals:
Weight – 175
Pant Size – 12
Shirt Size – Large
Waist – 32
Hips – 38
Chest – 36
Arms – 11
Thighs – 23

Body Mass Index – 22.5
Body Fat – 28%

Some of my overall goals on the measurements are more just educated guesses. The most important things I want to change are my weight, my BMI, and my body fat percentage. I want to be in a healthy range for all of them. I’m hoping to get down to at least a size 12, which is a large. I can’t even imagine being a size that doesn’t have an X in it! I can however imagine doing a ton of shopping in whatever store I wanted to go into. That’ll be REALLY fun. I posted recently about a reward for reaching one of my goals. I’m going to do that often, just to make it more fun. My reward for reaching these overall goals, the three main ones, is a shopping spree for new clothes! I’m going to need it after losing 100+ lbs. That’s a reason to work out right there; new clothes! That’s incentive enough!! =D