T-Minus 13 Days!

Wow, less than 2 weeks left until I finish my first round of Insanity! Already?

So, first things first, I missed my weigh-in on here last week because my older son was sick, then my husband, then me. Ugh. It was bad. I did actually weigh-in though, just had no time to post it, and I lost 7 lbs.! (Down to 283!) Insanity Month 2 is a killer!! But it was fun. I like how challenging it is. Even though I still cry during every workout for one reason or another. Sometimes because I’m overwhelmed, sometimes because I’m frustrated, and sometimes because I’m proud of myself. These workouts alone are helping me learn so much about myself and also shape myself into the person that I want to be, not only physically but mentally as well. It’s like they’re magic! Lol.

So, after that huge weight loss, my family did get sick and I was either too busy taking care of them or too sick myself to do hardly any workouts last week. And the ones I managed to start, I didn’t end up finishing. Yeah, it was really bad. I kept up with my healthy eating as best I could, but I had some not so good soup and grilled cheese a couple of times and things like that. I also didn’t eat as often as I normally do. I went from eating 5-6 small meals to eating 3-4 depending on how I felt that day. Hopefully I’ll be more prepared next time we all get sick with some easy snacks and recipes. (Blog post idea? Lol.)

So, as you can see, I was worried about my weigh-in yesterday. It’s been a rough week and while I wasn’t expecting a gain, I wasn’t expecting another big number either. I was pleasantly surprised when I got on the scale and lost another 5 lbs.! (Down to 278!) So, I’m down 19 lbs. in 50 days with Insanity and 33 lbs. overall in less than 3 months! I’m beyond excited about these numbers! I’m feeling a little better this week and looking forward to really busting it out these next two weeks! I can see the finish line for this round and I am SO excited to see my results from Day 1 to Day 60, especially from my before and after pictures! This is it, I’m almost there!! If I lose another 11 lbs. by the end of this, I can treat myself to that mani/pedi! Wish me luck, I could really use this reward. Lol.


Another Week, Another Weigh-In

Well, this week has been a tough one. Visiting family while trying to eat right is hard. We went to visit my in-laws and ended up going to a block party with tons of food. I found some healthy things, but as my husband sat down next to me with a plate full of stuffed jalapenos, cookies, and cake, I found myself eating a few bites from his plate! Fail. We went straight from the party back to their house and ate dinner. (I did not need to eat any more.) We had to eat fast so I scarfed down a veggie burger, a baked potato, carrots, corn on the cob, and some potato salad. WHAT?! Right after I finished my plate, I was completely disappointed with myself. I just had to keep telling myself that it was only one meal (one BIG meal) and that the next day would be better. Also, I got 2 hours of cardio in the pool that day so that helped a little as well. We were supposed to leave the next morning but there was a change of plans and we stayed for another day and a half. And no, I didn’t bring Insanity with me. We went to the beach the next morning and I got an amazing workout in the ocean (trying not to get pulled in, lol) and on the shore, chasing my dog around with my son. It was a exhausting but such a blast! And I ate as well as I could with what I had. The real problem is that when I’m out and about or hanging out with people, I forget to eat! Ugh. Lessons learned I hope.

Which brings me to the weigh-in. Yeah, not so good this week. I screwed up with food and my workouts this week and ended up gaining 3 lbs. Yep, I’m back up to 290 lbs. I’m so ashamed. I know that I have people who are looking to me to inspire them and motivate them and I feel like I’ve let all of you down this week. I’m sorry to you and to myself for doing this again.

This is a daily struggle. I have an addiction to food. It’s real. And it’s hard to get past it. It’s the same as having any other kind of addiction; alcohol, drugs, etc. To me, an eating addiction is worse. You can rid your house of alcohol and drugs, but we all have to eat. My addiction stares me in the face every day. I keep wondering when I’ll stop having these setbacks. Every time I mess up I feel guilty, ashamed, and disappointed. All I want to do is curl into a little ball and cry. But I found something on facebook that my coach posted and it made me feel so much better so I’d love to share it with you.


But, since I’m halfway through Insanity (only 4 weeks left!) and I’ve seen some changes other than on the scale, I thought I’d post some more during pictures. These are my 30 day results with Insanity:

before1during day 30

before 2during day 30 (2)

before 3during day 30 (3)

Weight – 290 (7 lbs. down)

Pant Size – 22 (down 2 pant sizes)

Shirt Size – 2x (down 1 shirt size)

Waist – 50 (down 1 inch)

Hips – 52 (down 2 inches)

Chest – 45 (down 2 inches)

Arms – 14.5 (down .5 inch)

Thighs – 29 (down 1 inch)

Body Mass Index – 49.3 (down 1 point)

Body Fat – 57% (down 1%)

And there you have it. Progress! I have 4 weeks left until Insanity, which means to meat my original goal for the program, I need to lose another 23 lbs. which seems crazy! I also joine another challenge group. This one is 90 days so finishing this round of Insanity and finishing another round as well. My goal for that is to lose 40 lbs., fit into a size 18 pants and an XL shirt. Wish me luck??

Weigh-In – Two Months In!

I weighed myself this morning about 5 times because I couldn’t believe what I was seeing! I even had my husband come make sure I wasn’t going crazy. It says I weigh 287! That means I’ve lost 5 lbs. this week! It also mean I’ve lost 10 lbs. in the last 4 weeks, since I started Insanity, and 24 lbs. in the last 2 months! I am truly in shock right now!

This week hasn’t been he best, either so I’m surprised. I usually don’t see results for a week, so these are the results from all my hard work last week. I am not expecting a big number next weigh-in because this week has been really hard. I haven’t worked out since last Monday because I was sick all week. Maybe TMI, but it’s that time of the month and I’ve always had horrible cramps. And all I was to eat is soup, grilled cheese, and brownies. Lol. I had about 1 of each all week so I’m proud of that. I was so tempted to just give up on healthy eating all week. The only real exercise I got in was about a 1.5 mile hike with my hubby and kids yesterday. I was holding my 2 month old in his carrier half the time so that was an extra 17 lbs. or so. We were supposed to do the whole 5 mile hike, but we got lost on the way and it was going to get dark soon. No way was I dong that hike with drops on the sides of the trail with my kids at night! Maybe we’ll try it again next Sunday.

I had a few days when I was so discouraged because I wasn’t working out, too. Not only was I hurting, but I also get depressed sometimes so I was battling that this week too. I’m sure I could’ve pushed through and worked out a few times at least, but I just couldn’t get my body to get off the couch like my mind wanted it to. Oh well. That’s in the past now. I will have to try and find some healthier recipes for my TOM cravings next month and find some easier workouts if it comes to that. But that’s all I’m going to say about it. No dwelling on my little mistakes or setbacks. I know better for this week and am excited to get back on track!

Actually, I plan on coming back with a vengeance! My plan this month is to not only conquer Insanity but also to complete this July challenge from https://www.facebook.com/4fitmommas. Who’s with me??

JulyChallengeHere’s to turning my setback into a comeback!! =D

Late Weigh-In Part 2

Apparently Mondays have been busy because I keep forgetting about my weigh-in! Tuesday comes around and all of a sudden I realize, “Crap! I forgot to weigh in yesterday!” So, this last week has been a kind of difficult for me because, as you know, I was away from home visiting family. I promised myself I wouldn’t eat junk. I brought my own food for the week and everything. But, I messed up. I had a burrito one night at my Mom’s house. And the next morning I had a fatty breakfast. (I even ate out once!) My eating schedule was off a little too. I kept forgetting to eat! I guess being away from home made me not realize the time too. And I missed a couple workouts in a row again because I was sick. Again. Sigh.

121Even last night I was hurting (because of a fat girl problem I won’t go into) but I pushed through 2 workouts, only doing the moves I could do at the time which was half. So, I basically did 1 full workout. Not what I wanted. I was actually pretty mad about the fact that I couldn’t push myself as hard as I knew I could. But I did my best, none the less.

My first 2 weeks of Insanity I only lost 2 pounds and I was getting a little discouraged. Those pictures last week definitely helped motivate me a little more. I just got off the scale and I am at 292 lbs. which means I’m down another 3 lbs.! I can’t believe it! I’ve lost 5 lbs. since I started Insanity 3 weeks ago and 19 lbs. altogether since May 1st!! I’m so happy to finally see a big change on the scale. Huge sigh of relief. I am on my way to getting fit and healthy and I love myself for it!

Even with my little setbacks, I am completely ADDICTED to these workouts. I LOVE the feeling of sweat dripping off my face. A little weird, I know, but it makes me feel so accomplished! I have never worked so hard in my life. I feel so powerful after too, like I can do anything. How does working out make YOU feel?


Late Weigh In

Here it is. I’ve lost 2 pounds in the last 2 weeks, which isn’t tremendous, but I’m proud! Slow progress is still progress. I’m happy to at least see the number go down a little bit! So, as of today, I have gone from 311 lbs. down to 295 lbs. so my total loss so far is 16 lbs.!!

I feel great too. I am terribly sore from yesterday, but loving every minute of it. Being in pain or stiff from working out feels so much better than just generally feeling sick and lazy from doing nothing every day. I’m amazed at the transformation I’ve seen in myself already, and I’m not talking about the scale. Yesterday, for the first time in my life, I was bored and my first thought was not to reach for food! Instead, my instinct was to work out! It’s amazing what sticking to a healthy lifestyle can do in just 2.5 weeks. I can’t wait to see what I’ll be like in another year!


I’d love to hear from you! Please tell me in the comments what changes you’ve seen in yourself since you started your journey or what changes you’re excited to see!

Exhaustion Has Set In

Boy, starting a really intense workout program like this after just having a baby 6 weeks ago is difficult. I was exhausted BEFORE I started exercising! I’m hoping what they say about how exercising gives you energy will kick in soon. I kind of need it with a newborn and 2 year old at home.

Anyway, today is day 8 of my 60 day program and I am glad to be done with my workout for the day. Today, in particular, was difficult for me. Just this one specific workout. It’s the same one from last week that made me doubt myself. It’s hard watching a workout video and seeing everyone do these moves that I just can’t do. Yet. And that is key. I can’t do the moves YET, but I will be able to before I know it. I try my best and that is all I can ask of myself. I worked my butt off on Saturday to try and modify less and I think I did a pretty good job. Amazing, really. I am already getting better and I’m even more flexible during the stretching already, just in 8 days! I can only imagine what I’ll be able to do in 52 more!

As difficult as this program is for me, and as much as I doubt myself sometimes, I know that working hard and pushing through the pain is making me stronger, not only physically but mentally as well. This is the first time in my life that I will accomplish something. Even if I don’t lose any weight during this whole program I will know that I completed it and I tried every single day to better myself. It’s not really about the number on the scale for me. It’s about the way that I feel about my body and about myself. I am already so proud of myself for sticking to this!

Now, I know it’s weigh in day, but I’m honestly not sure what to put this time around. I’m still working on getting my food intake right so I’m not sure if the scale is right. The scale I had gives me a few different results every time, so I bought a new one, thinking it would be more accurate. Well, it says I’ve gained weight, but I don’t think I’ve really gained weight because I’ve been working my butt off. I think my old scale was just wrong, so I’ve decided to continue with the weigh-ins starting next Monday. I hope you all understand!

Here’s to another great week!

Keeping Myself Accountable

I’ve realized that, as embarrassed as I am, I feel like I should post some before pictures, my weight (which I have said before) and my measurements to keep me accountable. Okay, I’m more than embarrassed, I’m terrified. Ugh. Here goes.

Weight – 297
Pant Size – 24
Shirt Size – 3x
Waist – 51
Hips – 54
Chest – 47
Arms – 15
Thighs – 30

Body Mass Index – 40.3
Body Fat – 58%

Before Photos 2

Overall Goals:
Weight – 175
Pant Size – 12
Shirt Size – Large
Waist – 32
Hips – 38
Chest – 36
Arms – 11
Thighs – 23

Body Mass Index – 22.5
Body Fat – 28%

Some of my overall goals on the measurements are more just educated guesses. The most important things I want to change are my weight, my BMI, and my body fat percentage. I want to be in a healthy range for all of them. I’m hoping to get down to at least a size 12, which is a large. I can’t even imagine being a size that doesn’t have an X in it! I can however imagine doing a ton of shopping in whatever store I wanted to go into. That’ll be REALLY fun. I posted recently about a reward for reaching one of my goals. I’m going to do that often, just to make it more fun. My reward for reaching these overall goals, the three main ones, is a shopping spree for new clothes! I’m going to need it after losing 100+ lbs. That’s a reason to work out right there; new clothes! That’s incentive enough!! =D